Kaffeepause

That’s what we used to call it when I lived in Germany, “Kaffeepause.” Literally, “coffee pause.” Just a break from the tedium of the work day, when we stop to have coffee, or better yet, “Kaffee und Kuchen” (coffee and cake), usually around 3 p.m. or so.

That’s more or less what I’m doing now, taking a break from my workday (Saturdays are usually busy for me) to have a quick coffee before returning to the mayhem that is my weekend work life.

My Saturdays usually start a bit later than this one did today: I had a bunch of makeup work to do as a result of the snow during the week that resulted in a number of canceled appointments. So I had to start the day by playing catch-up. Somewhat surprisingly, my wife turned up right around 8:00 a.m. This tells me that she wasn’t with her lover last night, but rather over at her friends’ house. Not that that’s good or bad, it just is what it is. Or more properly, it was what it was.

I do know, about as authoritatively as I can know anything second- (or third-) hand that she is planning on being with her lover this weekend. The reason I know this is that she canceled some appointments on Monday, pushing them forward to Tuesday. This can only mean to me, at this point anyway, that she plans on spending 2-3 days with her lover. Whether she leaves today or not is anyone’s guess, but I suppose I’ll find that out when I get home. I’ll also find out if she decided to take the dog with her, as she has done in the past. Somehow I doubt that, though, and I also doubt that I’ll get any sort of note or explanation, since I clearly don’t rate anything like that anymore.

As I said before, I kind of want them to be together, since that will help the affair come crashing to the ground that much sooner. Don’t get me wrong: I hate this affair, and don’t like the idea of them being together, but I do like the idea of her being with him with the kind of stress she is currently under, as there is an elevated chance that they will get into some sort of argument. My wife is incredibly stressed out these days, is feeling tremendous pressure, and is visibly very unhappy. An argument, were one to happen, could actually end up being a relationship-ender for them, and that’s what I’m rooting for.

The other thing that’s interesting about this is that, from an astrological standpoint, the timing couldn’t be better for a relationship-ending argument to unfold. I’m not an astrology buff, but the spiritual lineage I practice in, which progresses generally from Tibetan Buddhism, gives great credence to astrological calculations. Astrology is seen as a branch of the healing arts, and astrological divination would often part of traditional medicinal procedures. The 2-3 days leading up to either a new or full moon are seen as being problematic and turbulent. Those days fall on this weekend, and are no exception to the rule. Traditionally, travel would be avoided both today and tomorrow, as they are the final days leading to the new moon. Tomorrow (Sunday) is an unfavorable day with the elemental combination “fire-water,” one of the most unfavorable in the entire month. So, it’s pretty much a bad day for doing things, and is said to be one in which mental obscurations are present, and possibly abundant.

Maybe you can see where I’m going with this: I’m hoping for some ancient wisdom to prove to be, in fact, wise.  I guess I’ll just have to wait and see. I have no plans for starting important activities or doing anything that might be unfavorable. I’ll just spend a quiet day at home, taking care of chores and tasks needing to get done. Maybe I’ll even get some “good news,” in the sense of the affair crashing to the ground.